Falling in Love... (Part 2)

This is a continuation from Part 1

What sweet times we've shared. Sometimes God shows me his love and it's just too raw for me to bear. I don't know whether to cry or to rejoice. I have to tell God to please stop because it's too much to bear. If I think too seriously about his love, I'm instantly overwhelmed. If I were to seriously consider the words I sing when I worship, I would be crying every time.

What a sweet blissful time I had with God, I just remember that first year. Just thinking about the songs I sang, how I just needed him, how my wounds were healed, how my questions were answered, and how I started eating up his word; listening to sermons every day, reading, praying, thinking, reflecting. I thought about just losing control, losing myself in him. I have this image of diving into a pool and swimming around under water. Full free range of motion, but inundated and surrounded by him.

But you must know that I was still sinning, still stumbling, but still clinging to his feet. No, I was not perfect, no matter how glorious my description of the time. Far, far from it. My sin was obvious to me. Don't think for a second that you have to be perfect to experience this love.

I once heard about some dude on the East Coast. I think it was Moody, but I may be wrong. (Please correct me if you know better). I heard about how Moody was holed up for 3 days or something in a room, waiting for God to pour out his love on him. Eventually it was so strong he had to tell God to stop.

When I first heard that story, I thought it very weird, and said to myself, "I'd never do that". It was totally removed from my reality. I didn't think I'd ever experience something like that. But I asked myself if I wanted to experience that, and I thought, yes. It was strangely intriguing to me. I said, "I don't know how or if it's gonna happen, but yes, I want it."

And I'm no different from you! Remember my previous life? There was no sweet communion then. And He wants to do the same work in you. He can and will if you let him. Do you want it?

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I wrote these 2 posts yesterday morning and it set my whole day straight. I woke up with a bad attitude and my thoughts going every which way. It seemed like it would be a bad day, and then he showed me all of this again. It changed everything.

I hope there's someone out there who can relate! Not someone who will say, "jeez Matt, we all know Jesus loves us, get over it" or "that's not a special feeling, we all feel that way all the time". Is there anyone else who gets completely floored? What an encouragement it would be to me if you told me about it! I love hearing from people who are in love with God, or just someone who really felt like they needed to hear this.