I've been thinking about you...

I was thinking about you today...

We've known each other for years now. I always loved talking to you. We always got along so well. Unfortunately time and space have separated us. I rarely get to talk to you as much as I'd like.

I was thinking some more about you today...

Where did I go wrong? I wish I could share a piece of my heart with you. I want to wake you up. Somebody needs to shake you to wake you up! Wake up! What are you doing with your life? I've failed you as a friend, if you can even call me that. Every time I talk to you I just talk about superficial things. I leave you where you are.

I've been thinking about you for years...

I've been watching you grow up and grow older. I've been reflecting on where your life has been and where it's going. I don't like where it's going. You're running your head into a wall and you don't know what to do about it. So you do it some more.

You always think that happiness and fulfillment are just around the corner. Then you find it wasn't all that, so then you move on to something else.

Please wake up...

You have this warped view of sophistication. It seems like you picked it out of some movie or song or commercial or magazine and have been chasing it all your life. You try to impress people that don't care about you at all. It pains me so much! to think of my friend being used puts me in anguish! You poor thing! They're in the same struggle as you: Trying to define themselves, establish themselves, build a reputation, to hinge their self-esteem on the acceptance of some stranger. And sometimes you're that stranger.

Please wake up...

*sigh*

I think about you entirely too much...

The way your situation consumes me is ironic, considering you think you're doing great. Why do you keep thinking a man is the answer to your needs? Your pain is much deeper. I'm not saying you have to forget about men. But you beat yourself up. You're so down on yourself. You're getting depressed. I can see it in your eyes. It's driving you to make worse decisions.

You're looking for a way out, but you don't see it. You've resigned yourself to your fate. You don't have to.

I remember when we talked about Jesus together. But your heart didn't treasure what was said. Your heart is cold. I'm afraid your heart is cold towards me as well. The wounds of your life are clouding your vision. You think Jesus is a chore. You couldn't possibly imagine that God might have the answer to your problems. I don't think you realize that he can heal your scars, that he really can give you abundant life. I thought Jesus said your joy will overflow, but you're a stagnant pond. There's so much more for you! You're satisfied with far too little! Your current situation keeps you from imagining it to be any different. Sure, God can create the universe, but when it comes down to the nitty gritty of your life, you think you know what's best, even better than God. Don't get me wrong, this is a common struggle. I'm constantly realizing how much I put myself at the center of my life. I'm constantly living to please myself. But this has got to stop. You've tried to do what seemed right to you, but I hope you'll come to realize that it's not working, and it's not going to work.

I think about you so much. I dream of the day when you say to me, "I gave it all up. I gave my life to Christ."

I'm so sad about you. You're headed down the road to destruction, or at best, a defeated life. I know you won't heed my words. You won't think it applies to you. But as a friend, if I beg you, will you listen? Will you do it as a favor to me?

In John 12:25 Jesus says:
Those who love their life in this world will lose it. Those who care nothing for their life in this world will keep it for eternity.

Your life has had the wrong foundation. The storms of life are beating you up. You're tired and exasperated. You're sick and tired of being sick and tired.
But your life would be so much better with a good foundation!

Consider this parable:

Matthew 7:24-27
Anyone who listens to my teaching and follows it is wise, like a person who builds a house on solid rock. Though the rain comes in torrents and the floodwaters rise and the winds beat against that house, it won’t collapse because it is built on bedrock. But anyone who hears my teaching and doesn’t obey it is foolish, like a person who builds a house on sand. When the rains and floods come and the winds beat against that house, it will collapse with a mighty crash.

It's time you take Jesus at his word. Do you really believe that Jesus knows what he's talking about? Can you agree that his words are perfect wisdom?

Give your life to Christ.

Matt



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Dear reader,
So you might be wondering, "who in the world is he talking to?" None of your beeswax. To be honest, it's written to several people. I had about 5 people in mind when I wrote it, which also explains some of the jumbledness. But I think it applies to all 5 in some way. Some of them may never see this post. Maybe one will. Actually I think it could apply to many people, probably you too.